I really would like to avoid the little games half of me plays when it comes to food. So, I know I am going to be giving up the foods I have been eating so what does the little devil on my shoulder say? " "This is your last chance at this taste so do it now or you will just die!"
I know I could give up a lot of foods for forever and not die because of it. It is just silly, but that is one of the head games played.
I did well on just a normal diet until evening. I wasn't really hungry but the though popped into my head that for a snack I will have a sliced apple )
(REALLY healthy) and chunky peanutbutter, just beause. I love the chunks in peanut butter. All was good except a bit over the top on the peanutbutter. I am going to have to toss that!
And then there is, you have to watch your health! Well, if I had really been doing that I wouldn't be in the spot of having to go on this diet. Since I will be having so many medical people keeping an eye on my health, I just have to let this one go.
That is the thing about the psychology aspect is that it is so one sided, against you. I have to really spend time to think it out and push against what is not true.
I am hoping that at the end of the first 4 months (liquid diet) I will have it engrained in my brain, portion control and health food. And the reward will be so many things: less hip pain and joint pain in general, more energy, clothes fitting better and feeling better about myself.
Right now I feel huge. Looking forward to some good news soon. I can't even imagine what 40 lbs off will look like....Oh, I am really believing in those 40 lbs right now!
I am writing this today because I know I will have hard times ahead and I will be able to come back to this to see where I was at this point!
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